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Haven't been in the best condition lately, especially in terms of health. But i guess if things still goes on as it is, i'm probably going to become sicker in the mind. Already had a weird dream/nightmare about work during my nap earlier. :X So yea, i need an outlet.

Was half-observing the people around today, and i can't help but to question why I'm here with them. Yes, for my grades. I guess it's probably the only thing that's keeping me together and from blowing my top. It had certainly opened up my eyes to a lot of blind spots in the working world (if this is what it is), and unfortunately, it's fugly.

Some things I just don't get it; like how people are employed to handle serious administration stuffs but they selectively devote most of their working hours to be apple polishers. Or like how every interaction with each living being has to have a purpose, or a takeaway. Call me naive, but i cannot imagine myself being killed by a smile. It gets me thinking about myself in the future, like must I do this too? I cannot solely rely on performance but must help clean shoes to guarantee a fatter paycheck? And turn into these unfeeling idiots that i'm watching in disgust now?

And, scary are the people who are blinded by power, ambition, or simply greed. They tire the people around them. And i think i unfortunately, am a tormented.

You shouldn't bite off more than what you can chew, really. I won't save you if you choke.