oh haiii May

4 pairs of shoes within the first week of hols, and no, I'm not in bkk. Not extreme, but not like me either. Guess I've indeed been a lil too deprived of shopping during the school term and deprivation + continuous brain drain = impulse buys (or maybe not). I love every pair (yes, including the turquoise one at the bottom right which is supposed to aid me in my failed attempt to keep fit this holiday), and I guess being shoe-happy x4 is a pretty good way to start the summer break :P

Been feeling like I have 101 things on my mental to-do list since the start of the hols but it always seems like I go to bed every night with the same 101 things unchecked/unaccomplished. It's just like how I always 'collect' stuffs/thoughts at the back of my mind, thinking how I'd have so much to pour out on this space after having not blogged for so long, but clicking the 'new post' button just makes my mind blank somehow, which explains mindless, incoherent posts like this one. #whatsoceryisthis Does anyone face the same problem? @__@

Otherwise, May has been pretty good. A lot of shopping, discovering new food places, movies and catching up with friends :DDDDD Attended my first Zumba and Yoga classes too (please don't laugh?), and aside the realization of my poor coordination skills and times when I thought I'd die from overstretching, I'm actually enjoying every bit of it. Also enjoying the mother-daughter time whenever I attend classes with the big fatty at home :) This is probably one of the best things about the 3-month break; no skipping dinner with the family cos of late-night mugging in school, no returning home to the fatties already asleep, just a lot of family fatties time. :) 

But yes, I've also came to realize that all that going-out-to-play is very pocket-unfriendly and the next 2 months is going to need moolahs, moolahs and more moolahs. *inserts rage face* Been applying for jobs and updating the online shop but I'm not getting any replies for the former (idk why man i'm not even using checkered_91 to apply -.-) and let's just say my shop has been attracting too many dumb bitches lately. Girls asking me to travel farther than them to save money FOR them / requesting for absurd meetup discounts as if I'm going to meet a celebrity / plain enquiring for fun / simply being more of an asshole than the previous asshole I've dealt with. Dammit. On a brighter note, all that job hunting and a recent interview I went for (though I didn't make the cut) has provided me with so much more insight on what I could and might want to work towards for a career in future but I guess I'll leave that for another post. 

Alright, abrupt end with this foreveralone handmade card I saw on a friend's tumblr which inspired me to make a similar one for a b'day boy who's obsessed with memes/rage faces and who'd recently found his derphina :) 

The original; Friends, you can learn how to make it at the tutorial here

And my version LOLLLL. Not awesome, but I hope you like it derp! Happy B'day! :D

How hard can it be?

Can one lah.

You worry too much.

I find myself replaying these phrases in my head every time I'm on the verge of crumbling under exam stress, trying to recall when was the last time I heard them, or how nice it'd be if I could hear them again. And by hearing them again, I do not mean over the phone, much less as words in an SMS or our whatsapp convo you only reply to once in awhile now. 

Maybe I'd feel so much better/at ease about starting my revision one day before the paper if you were right here telling (lying to) me that I'll make it nonetheless. Because seriously, 'How hard can it be?'. Back in secondary school, not only did that statement made you sound like a complacent piece of shit (LOL), it didn't  in the least bit served to reassure me bout upcoming tests/exams. Weird how it's only now when I don't get to hear it anymore, I'm starting to seek comfort in it (for better or worse idk). But I would very much prefer if you could fly here and say it to me in person; tell me i'll be fine. Meanwhile, the whole world can gasp in shock as they struggle to find the right words to calm me down but I could tell from the look on their faces that they were secretly glad they aren't caught  in the same deep shit. But I could do without those, really. If you were here, I'm sure you'd tell me to not give a fuck about them too. 

I really miss chasing grades together. And do you remember late night phone calls when we'd make up stupid what-if scenarios? What about competing to guess the correct title whenever a familiar song starts playing in the background? Do you remember us getting caught in the craze of learning how to identify the authentic Anya Hindmarch bag I used to be so in love with? Do you still bookmark this space and check it out once in awhile? Can you see I'm falling apart.

I think of those times now and then, and it just makes me wanna cry because I miss them so much. I even miss you calling me a 'fat conservative old woman that nobody will ever love because of her attitude problem' LOLLL. Just a couple of days ago, I found myself fighting back the tears at a bus stop on the way to school, just thinking (excluding the old hag part though). I even missed my bus wtf.

Take Me On

Yet another great original after Peaches. Can someone remind me why I'm putting myself through the brain-fry from drafting essay after essay when I could really be getting eargasms on Youtube while waiting for blogshops to launch their latest collections? And goddammit, tmr's the last day of school yet I'm still not spared from the mad rush to meet deadlines; something which I've been dealing with throughout the entire semester. _|_  _|_

On a happier note, my second article for Insomniac is up! Very heartened by the encouragement I've received and I hope this will continue to get better as it goes :)

i just might

“I vow to love you, and no matter what challenges might carry us apart, we will always find a way back to each other.” 

- Leo, The Vow

My favourite favourite quote out of the many beautiful lines from the movie. Been awhile since I wanted to watch a movie so bad; I think my last was One Day but even so, it wasn't to the extent that I placed it on my 'must-watch' list like more than a month before its premiere, mistook the US release date for Sg's and got tix for the first day of its release LOLLL. #suckerforromantics i know but i guess it's the case for most girls?! Anyway. Watched it with the girls and I swear almost every scene of Leo and Paige after she lost her memory made me teared wtf. It's just heartbreaking to see two (very good-looking) people who were once so madly in love, becoming strangers and looking at one another knowing there should be so much more. And I guess the fact that it was inspired by real events makes the audience even more empathetic towards the couple = cry more only. Tear-jerking moments aside, the movie was enjoyable (esp the awww-scenes of Leo and Paige) but I wished there was more focus on the couple and their struggles, rather than the one-sided search for identity on the actress's part (like, I don't really want to see her reconnecting with her family, I'm more concerned if she's able to reconnect with him LOL). And if you're a sucker too, you'd find the ending abrupt and imperfect. Then again, because you're a sucker to begin with, this movie is still a must-watch. #wthamisaying

*****

Visited Real Food Cafe with a friend on Wed. Loved the vegan/organic/healthy-eating concept; it would be  nice if sg had more of such food places to cater to the younger group of vegans/health-conscious peeps. I remember trying to search for nice vegetarian cafes once and found very limited choices. Or maybe it's just me :/

All health-related books.

Probably my fav part of the cafe (go on, roll your eyes, I'm shallow like that lol)

'Listen To Your Heart' Tea and Strawberry+Cheesecake Pie

Gotta admit I ordered the tea because of its name; they have a wide range of tea and they all have names that contained the name of a body part that the tea is supposedly beneficial for, e.g. Heal Your Stomach (or sth like that, I forgot). I decided that 'Listen To Your Heart' sounded the nicest (suckerrr) so I ordered that LOLOLLLL. But thankfully, it tasted good :D I like! The pie was a bit too sour for us though.

Organic Potato Wedges; healthier alternative to the usual fried ones

All in all, a pretty good chill out place albeit a bit pricey, considering we only had sides and drinks (I kinda regretted not trying out their main courses and staying for awhile longer though). But I guess it's alright for a once-in-awhile thing. Besides, I enjoyed myself :) Thanks to you, my friend! 

XR CALLED ME woooohoooo

First of all, I DID NOT cut my hair so relax my friends hahaha. Photo was from like 2 yrs back when I still call this girl every other night to talk about the most ridiculous stuffs one could ever think of lol. But life after np has been so busy I guess late night phonecalls had to make way for uni and other stuff :( I remember looking at her recent tweets thinking bout those conversations we had then and wondering if it'd still feel that comfortable if i called her out of the blue to chat. Like, should I try? But as always, I chickened out (yayayaya I'm a humji) lol. But tonight, XINRUI CALLED *insert dramatic sound effect here*. Okayyy, I have to admit how I was being a real idiot because a small part of me actually suspected that this dear, yet out-of-sight, friend of mine just needed a survey respondent or sth LOLL. #badfriend But thankfully, no. She called to invite me to her b'day party and was still as sarcastic (if not more) as she was when I knew her. <3 I'm not going to elaborate much on how I felt when I received the call lest I sound like an emotional nutcase, but I'm just very touched lahhhh. :') 

And to you my friend, I don't know if you still check this space out but in case you do; I'm really glad you called :) Thanks for letting me know that I'm not forgotten, and know that you're on my mind too. Sorrrrryyyy for the survey thingy you know I love you haha! *virtual hug*