checkchocolate*

i'm glad that i'm over and done with the report. And like i say, a change is good, so i'm happy for me. But i can't help thinking about all the uncertainties that comes with starting over after i have 'started over' at %($@#&@#($!. I'm almost desperate for better treatment.

i think i need a break before Monday comes.

i think i'll go out tomorrow, go get the stuffs i like.

i need to feel like i don't have to care about being judged or graded. i need to stop pushing myself and trying so hard just so i don't feel useless.

And words. I feel like they disappear as soon as they're let out.

So i'm not relying on them, or anyone for that matter.

i'm just going out.