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never that keen

At makan place again! :) I have 2 hours or so to burn before the next segment of the event starts. Having experienced the lunch time office crowd for the previous months, the 12pm crowd at makan place is really nothing.

It's going to be a really looong day today with jap class later on. And all my barang barang are breaking my shoulders. :/ I try to stay as long as possible at one place so I won't have to carry them around, and am also trying not to think I've to carry them all the way home later at night. Super heavy! T__T

Anyway. I really need to recall my lost love for jap (if there was a love to begin with), if not rethink my decision to continue. I'm almost always tired during lessons, if not super chatty. -.- I can't, and sometimes don't, follow and I don't really know what I'm learning anymore. And besides liking cute japanese products, I don't really hold the same enthusiasm/interest in areas like anime or j-pop, as do my other classmates. I'm not motivated/hardworking enough to study for tests, and I procrastinate doing my homeworks. I am an intermediate 201 student but I speak and write waaaayy noobish-er than a basic 101. If you're wondering how I made it to the intermediate level, it's really memorizing. Then again, if I was really that keen and good as a learner, I should've tried rather than just rely on remembering lines to get that pass. Which means, I was never that willing to learn. Yes my bad my bad. But they say if you're really passionate about something, you would give it all to attain and perfect it, isn't it? Maybe it means I'm not into japanese anymore? Or maybe I was never that crazy about it in the first place. :/

But on the other hand, I'm left with 2 more sems to pass before I get that cert and if possible, exemption advantage for wherever I'm heading to after poly. How?

I'm really starting to feel like I'm an insult to the japanese language and I don't like this feeling. Rawr!