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Seems like there's going to be lots of stuffs to see to in the next couple of weeks, starting tomorrow. Not many of which I'll look forward to though, starting with Jap writing and listening test (and as if it's not enough, there's another mini grammar test on the same day) next Tues. :/ And then speaking test in the week after. It really kind of upsets/scares/(i don't know) me just to think how I might have to squeeze all that I've learned within the next few days, and how grueling the process would be for a noobshit like me. :( And even if I'd pull through that, would I have no idea what the qns are asking / fumble during the dialogue? I know how I sound like the low-self-esteem loser now, but judging from the waaay-lower-than-average time and effort I spend on the subject, I have every reason to worry/regret/whatever. This lack of confidence is real and constant, I just wish it was known better than how I'd eventually get by this anyway. :/

On a happier note, part of the plans include booking the tix to HK - where I constantly imagine myself to be at, every minute every second. :) It sure beats being drowned in Nihongo grammar or confined to small workspaces! This life now is seriously not good for me.... :(