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tough love.

Finally went for a haircut and got rid of the 'block hair' that was growing out at the back! Was shampooing my hair just now, and it felt so bare - like, you know the feeling when you run it through your fingers and they're so short you can't really run it through (lol sorry if you have no idea what i'm trying to say but it's a funny yet good feeling). Like so fresh! *the way T.O.P always says it* But the best part is, i feel like i can wear hairbands again! Which is pretty good, as i had wanted to sell all of mine because it felt like i didn't suit them anymore :'(. But now there's no need for that, so i won't have to miss them when they're gone! :)

So much for hair stuff, there're more important things to fret over. Like the term's results on Friday (which is totally freaking me out because of the freaking! ultimate-once-in-a-lifetime internship experience i had), school reopening... etc etc, which would never fail to lead me to think about what i want/going to do in future.It's a question that will come to mind every other quiet moment. Did i mention that i met a lot of ex-NP students who are no longer interns but full-time employees at Resorts World during my last visit? Looking at them in the working world, particularly in the service industry and fully able do what's related to their course of study back in poly, I can't help but to think of how i would be, a few years down the road. Would i be like them, making the best out of what I've learned thus far? Or would i be like what most adults tell their juniors about not necessarily having the job that I've 'studied'?

I know how it might sound appalling, but to be honest, i have no idea.

i think about the things i want to do, might want to do, or may actually have a potential to do well - i think about them all the time, really. But i guess i didn't went any further than that so that's why i don't exactly have much mapped out, yet.

They say you will, 'when the time comes'. I figured it's just like how i used to worry about how i would make the transition from primary to secondary school because i don't have an older sibling to tell me all about it. And, what after the O's? There wasn’t anyone who had been through it and was close enough to guide me along. But eventually, which is now, i'm here, with one more semester left before i graduate. So i think maybe i might know the answer, or receive some kind of 'instruction' when the time comes for me to navigate myself in the corporate world. Or is it so? Sometimes i secretly hope it's going to be like this, when at some point of time, where something just prompts you to make a decision - the right one that's going to be the best for yourself. Then again, something inside always seemed to remind me that it's hardly ever going to be that way. And i'm not even sure if the decisions i've made thus far, have been the best ones in my life.

How many people decided that they would spend their lives doing the things they love and how many actually did it? And most importantly, which category will/do i belong to? Maybe it's really time to find out my own strengths/develop a passion/work magic so i could figure out a direction in life which i would eventually look back and conclude that it's the best route I've chose to take.

LOL abrupt end here, because i can't really think anymore. Sorry but i didn't knew this would end up so lengthy and kinda heavy. :/ Anyway, time to hit the sheets! Night! :)