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a whole lot of random

My nails now. This took me *&*#%^&@#@ looong!

So uber cute I had to take a picture. I'd get it immediately if I had a Victoria now, but nopes, I don't. :/

I know how this is like the 5483579th time, but I LOVE MY FAIRY LIGHTS.

And yes I spotted my own fugly feet too. Take it that it's not there k? LOL.

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I know how this should, by right, be a BKK post but am too lazzzyyy to go summarize and talk about it. Maybe when I get the mood to? :) Otherwise, I have a whole lot of thoughts which, I'm also too lazzzzyy to organize, so I'm just going to list them out very very randomly. Here goes:

1) Thoughts and prayers are with those in Japan. I've no idea how with all the depressing updates and footages aired on the news everyday, there are still people out there who are gloating over how the country is in turmoil. 'Retribution and Karma' theories, really? Looks like we've quite a handful of retards out there.

2) I know how they say we should always leave the past behind, and look ahead, etc etc etc. But at some point of time, some things can just get you thinking about the past and all the things you should/could have done. And lately, I'm into thinking a lot again (or maybe I have always been) and I realized that the regrets I have, are endless. I have so many of them and no, am not talking about the clothes I didn't buy in Gongbei or Jatujak. Well I sure wish all my regrets were of this scale cos I could simply go back and get those clothes or prettier ones to make myself feel better, but no. The things that I never did for the people I owed could no longer be made up for. The people whom i've lost to my flaws; I'll probably never be able to find them back again even if I changed for the better. These regrets, they're huge. And the loss that comes with it, it eats away a part of me every time I think about how things should have been. They may not make me perfect, but I'm sure I would've felt more complete.

3) The road ahead still seems pretty blurry. Am still hoping that I can stick to what I mentioned about 'acquiring the means to do what I like as priority over career satisfaction', but I need to get more than that figured. And by the time I do so, I hope the choices I make for myself are the right ones.

4) I have 101 things I want/need to buy. T___T Need money, need to sell clothes, NEEDAJOB.

5) I think sometimes I spend waaaayy too much of my time fantasizing.

Okaess, it turned out more wordy than I thought. :/ anyway, 晚安！