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'Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed, so you can open one that leads you to the perfect road.'

What if what i'm searching for is not some sort of high career standing?

What if i don't have to aim high?

What if all i need is just the means (like cash) to keep myself happy, healthy and most importantly, contented.

No doubt working brings about income which ultimately, allows one to achieve more wants and finally --> HAPPY ONLY.

But maybe there's no need to try and make it big.

Maybe I'm all good with a stable income that could keep me comfortable (thereby meaning well-fed/clothed, not luxuriously) - no need for statuses, reputations, fame or even lackeys at your beck and call.

These stuffs are effing complicated.

Maybe I'm not even looking for career satisfaction.

Maybe i'm just looking for a way to give myself the means to acquire the things that, in my perspective, are truly self-satisfying. Then again, what is truly self-satisfying?

I'm not saying these to comfort/convince myself that I could take things easy etc etc etc. But once too often, we see people painting perfect pictures of the lives ahead, only to be reduced to nought, if not sheer disappointment in the end. (Of course, there's a lot of happy endings too but Virgos are a pessimistic group, at least I am) And, I don't want to plan like I'm going to dominate the world if I'm not confident of doing so. And truly, I don't want to dominate the world. I've been thinking, and fact is, I'm afraid I don't have big dreams that will awe everyone. At least not now.

Ugh, growing up is troublesome. :/